Ok so I just received a call from URC saying that they wanted to interview me for an executive assistant position for the General Manager of the snack foods division. Good timing! Wow! (sarcasm, sarcasm) I was like waiting for their call around the last week of May. It took them several months before they called me up. And now that I have a job and a contract at Ibank they want me to show up on monday at 9am for an interview. hmmm... I was given already a short (sermon) discussion by my BM about leaves. To go or not to go.

Damn straight@! I wanna go! But then, I have a job already and I can't afford to have absences again lest I want my uber low, minimum to the hilt, pretending to be high, a poor excuse for a salary to be deducted. Sheeesh. Their timing is sooo bad and they have the panache to say that they'd be giving me a way better job than here at the bank. Maybe they would give me a better job. Would I like it? I dunno. Hell, my choices lately have been bad. I took a job that I thought (note: thought) that I would love but which now hinders my growth. I feel like a total loser, useless, and undermined. I can't motivate myself to do my job. Why? I have no idea. The people here are nice, it's just that I can't find that connection (like in a bf/gf relationship) and that vibe that would make me click together with them. The job is OK but my heart is not in it. I basically do a Garfield where I say I HATE MONDAYS coz I have to drag my feet to work again. I just don't know what is wrong with me. I mean, I've done this kind of work during college and I was a damn good marketer! But now, I'm far from mediocre. I'm a loser. My enthusiasm, my love for selling, my love for talking suddenly was gone.

Anyway, I have to think of something so that I can go to this interview thingie on monday. Btw, I also have another interview on Wednesday with Green Cross for product assistant. But then, they're based in Ayala Alabang. I have no means of going there. I'll cancel it then apologize for not being able to attend. I'll make up an excuse. I'm (sadly) good at making excuses naman. Sh*t!

On a happier note, I HAVE A LICENSE TO DRIVE NA! whoopee! Happy happy joy joy! After waiting in line for such a long time at LTO yesterday, FINALLY they gave me my license. hurrah! And oh yeah we will be having this pool party either this weekend or next weekend and we will be wasting ourselves. I miss my buddies, I miss the Patay Gluttons, I miss everyone who is not employed right now.
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On another note, I never knew I was crushable. Someone admires me in a clean, nice way. Whoever you are mister who admires me... THANK YOU! :) It's quite flattering. :)

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Memo to self: Think positive. Think like the rich to create ideas that will make you rich. Try working harder at loving your work. PRAY. PRAY that Unilab will offer you a huge salary and great benefits so that you can resign. lol.

1:29 P.M.

*sigh*
I'm sitting here at the office, moping. I can't believe what I just discovered. I accidentally opened a file that showed the monthly production of each individual here in the branch. Obviously, I looked at my production report and what miffed me was that my biggest account to date was not included! Hello!!!!! My performance is based on my accounts. My biggest account not being shown would make me look like I'm not doing my job! God! I mean, everytime I look into the system (SYMBOLS) the account says it's tagged under my name. Grrr... so how's that for a motivating tool eh? Im sooo motivated to work now.

OK so I'm really lazy right now to type so I'm just pasting my so called essay on what happened to me last Thursday during a field test for United Laboratories. I'm actually wishing I had gone to that F2 concert last night with Joko so I would have something exciting to tell while Jen is leaving for Washinton DC for almost a month. My life is really so uneventful.

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It is 10 minutes to eight and I was just getting off at Boni Ave. Station. I am going to be late. I texted Ms. Kristine Mancenido that I am already near the office. After a short tricycle ride, I arrived at Unilab raring to go to my whole day field test. I was to be a legal stalker of one of the Business Development Associates (BDA) for a day. Excitement and anxiety circulated through my veins. I haven't got the slightest idea what they will do to me the whole day. As I was introduced to my companion for the day, Miko Paulino, I was relieved that I would not be alone in the day's quest. We were then introduced to Alphonsus De Jesus, more affectionately known as Dondie, the BDA we were supposed to tag along. I was relieved again that he was friendly and exuded a positive aura that calmed my anxious nerves.

After being briefed of our itinerary, we headed off to Paco, Manila to meet with Sir Ronald, one of Sir Dondie's distribution associates. We got down to business the moment we arrived at the distribution office. Sir Dondie explained that the BDA's have a monthly meeting held every first Saturday of the month were they discuss the targets for the month based on historical values then the BDAs trickle it down to their respective distribution associates where they set up plans and objectives for the month. Sir Dondie drew a diagram of what will be happening for the day. First, there was planning based on the objectives set. There was the Basic Call Procedures where the actual call is being observed, and of course the closing and setting up of objectives for the next day.

During the planning stage, Sir Dondie and Sir Ronald took some time out to check whether they have the paraphernalia needed for the day like the merchandise kits, the business plan copies, and of course ball pens, tape, calculators, and a sample of Ph Care Summer Blossom. They reviewed the days plan with objectives of pushing the RiteMed Label of products, the business plan, and the introduction of the Ph Care Summer Blossom, which is a new variant of the Ph Care line while Miko and I looked on.

Off we went to Tondo where we met up with the owner of 2RM Drugstore. After we were introduced, the plans and objectives that were laid upon earlier were put into place. I discovered that there are many customers in the area who buy what they actually see on television and if they are given something that varies, even if it is just the box color, they would react either in disappointment or in a fit of irritation. In addition, as the day went on, I also discovered that the owners prefer that before a product is shown on TV (in the case of Ph Care) they should already be introduced to it and have stocks ready to be sold to the market. The moment a customer sees something on TV they ask their "suking tindahan" or neighborhood drugstore and grocery if they have the product already. And if they don't have it, they just lost a customer.

We then set up the merchandise kits to promote Ph Care. We tacked some posters and tied Ph Care mobile-like cartons. After going through another drugstore, we went to Festival Drug and through other drugstores and even a wholesaler where we basically did what we have done the whole day and more.

Some of the things I have observed aside from customers buying what they see on TV are as follows: before a call is started, we would pause for a while and review the plans and objectives for each client and then after the call we would then evaluate what has transpired. And after the calls were finished, we would then review what again has transpired to see if we were productive during the calls and what were the strengths and weaknesses that led us to such results and how do we improve ourselves. After evaluating the results and ourselves, we then proceeded in planning for the next day’s objectives and steps to take for another set of clients. I asked Sir Dondie if they do this daily and he said they do. It helps them to be on top of things and to be focused on what they do. I again asked if they still do it even though they are all alone and he said more so because it sorts of disciplines them and makes their job easier and efficient, though it may sound corny. I thought otherwise. It was not really corny.

In retrospect, my day as a job shadow was great and it was a privilege to have gotten the experience. I was able to have the "feel" of an actual BDA work in the Distribution Team, of which I was glad that there was a good system in place. I was able to get to places in Manila I have never been to my whole life (aside from Quiapo and Divisoria, which I frequent for my shopping needs) like Navotas and Tondo and now know that Ped Xing really is a shortcut of Pedestrian Crossing and not a Chinese named street. I was able to experience going through a flood (courtesy of the high tide) even though it was blazingly hot outside. I was able to discover that even though Unilab was THE Unilab it still has to face some tough competition. Competition like the small time generics manufacturers who sell their medicines at a surprisingly low price of Php 0.25 per piece and other companies like Zuellig, whose BDA-like sales force we were able to chance upon when we went to Festival Drug.

Few 21-year olds can say they have seen an actual BDA in action, was part of the action for Unilab, and liked it. Fewer can boast of meeting and being with some of the most remarkable people like Sir Dondie, Sir Ronald, who are very dedicated with their work and are quite inspiring to see, and Miko, whom I had intimate wash conversations. Even few can say they have been part of promoting a new product that is not yet out in the market and be introduced as Sharon to Unilab clients while I'm holding a Sharon and KC poster and promotion kits. Moreover, I hope that I will be one of the even fewer who can boast that I was being convinced by no less than males to switch from my old brand to Ph Care.

I have calluses as big as a cookie. My feet now looks rather disfigured for my tastes. Since I started working, I've never felt this much underpaid. Well I know I'm underpaid but today was rather different. I looked kawawa talaga. Imagine me in my pencil cut skirt, red blouse and black blazer, in heels, with my trusty commuter's umbrella (cane type) in a semi major road walking... under the sweltering heat of the sun. Cars zoom pass by me... I walk then I heard a loud honking sound. I was almost hit by a water truck.. barely a few inches. As I walk I get lewd comments from workers that I pass by...I can't blame 'em. A girl in an office suit walking under the heat of the sun with her "briefcase" entering offices of other people... sales lady. As I walk again after being given the cold shoulder by a salon owner I felt really hot... sweat was forming all over my body. As I walk back to my branch hoping to get some water, I was almost hit again by a dump truck. The crazy driver would have deliberately hit my umbrella (it was angled towards my back so that my face is visible) had I not turned it infront of me. Another close call. Cars seem to honk at all sides of me. The people around me stared at me... am I that shabby looking? WHile all of this was happening the guards at my branch are just watching me from their airconditioned posts... grining. WOw! they didn't even had the sense to get me in the middle of a high traffic road using their power to stop traffic. NO. they just watched me. When I was able to cross the road I saw my reflection in the glass doors... sweat was dripping all over me, my hair looks sticky from all the dust I got and my face was soooo oily. The guards opened the doorand said.. papayat ka nyan mam. grrr... the clients inside the bank were looking at me, the tellers were staring at me. I looked straight ahead and went to the back room. I muttered to myself that rich people are not supposed to do this(I have an "im-rich" mantra). I looked at myself in the mirror... i looked like a rape victim! geez... and I'm being paid a measly salary of 9500 a month! I can't even get a post paid line approval because of my pay even though I HAVE MONEY TO BURN AND PEOPLE DO NOT KNOW THAT I'M A VICE PRESIDENT OF A COMPANY I BUILT WITH MY BUDS! *sigh*

In any case, as soon as I cinch this UNILAB thing... I'll resign. I swear. I don't care if I become a bank officer the moment I reach my quota... their terms are quite unreasonable. They should have said that what I'm applying for is a door to door sales lady job with no respect. I don't feel any respect. I am doing my job but I don't get any respect. They look at me as though I'm a useless employee. And another thing, I hate the term EMPLOYEE. IN a couple of years I'll be calling them MY EMPLOYEES. I will be rich and I will treat my people with respect they deserve. I will not let my people feel as though they are useless.

Maybe they're just threatened by the fact that I'm not afraid to challenge them. I know i'm good. I know they can feel it. But, they're trying making me feel as though in stupid. I know your products, I know your pricing scheme, I know what I should and should not do. I just act as if I need your advise to get on your good side. What I do not know I can find out for myself. I pretend to not know because you might get hostile. You reject my marketing ideas but you accept a similar idea. You reject my networking night event in favor of a cocktail night. WOW! that's the same idea only I used a more modern term. WOW.

Sorry. I'm already getting mad. I just feel as though I could get a better opportunity somewhere. But when I think about my parents I hesitate a BIT.

basta, I AM RICH@! I HATE THE TERM EMPLOYEE AND IN A COUPLE OF MONTHS? YEARS I WILL BE THE EMPLOYER.

*sigh*

According to Ms. Tin Tin of Unilab I'll probably getting a call within this week for a schedule of yet another set of tests.. this time I'll be spending the whole day with a BDA and joining him/her with an actual field work. Gosh... I hope they won't let me drive because 1.) I don't have a license yet 2.) It's been almost two years since I've tried to drive... and did it successfully. 3.) I'd rather focus on the actual field work rather than do the driving. If they wanted a driver then they should have hired one instead (yabang!).

Anyway, Unilever hasn't called me up yet for the time and date of the next interview. Gosh... I hope I passed. Another thing, I forgot I had an interview with Jones Lang Lasalle yesterday! Wha!!!!!!!!! It completely did not cross my mind. I was thiking the whole day where to get prospects... LORD!

Back to the car thing.. if anyone out there is willing to let me borrow their car so that I can refresh my memory then you're an angel... my pals say I should go on this refresher/crash course.. but I don't have 2900 bucks to spare. I can pay 1000 bucks only. So the 1000 bucks will go to the nice guy/girl who can lend me their car (they can even sit beside me) for 5 hours.. I'll fill up the tank for them. I just need to practice. please! Anyone? hehehe.. just trying my luck!

Joko gagayahin kita! May temporary highs ako ngayon!

Lord!

Salamat at naging OK yung panel interview ko sa unilab... pero Lord! I wish they'd call me na.. as in now na...

I'm so high with hope and joy because I've been called twice by UNILEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They interviewed me last friday, via cellphone, and then interviewed me again last saturday again via cellphone. They were supposed to set up an interview for me this morning but at 7:30 am it's quite impossible for me because I have to make "paalam" pa to my boss... Another thing I have an interview today with Jones Lang Lasalle... I wonder what companies are they gonna offer me??? hmm... McKann kaya?

Lord!

Tawagan na sana ako ng UNILAB at UNILEVER ulit!!!!!!

I wanna change jobs na...

On another note... I'm broke (but I'm not poor). Lord where'd all my money went? Well I'm investing it naman to something really good.. MODULE INC!!!!! Thank God this friday is payday again (wait, according to richdad my mindset is of a poor person. I shouldn't wait for payday... i should think of something to make me rich!).

OK so I'm reading the book Rich Dad poor Dad... It's quite an eye opener because I never realized I have a mindset of a poor person.. " You to go school, get good grades, find a stable job". It's scary because I never realized I was being programmed to be a poor person by my own parents and my teachers!

I should think of "How can I afford that" rather than " I can't afford that" Hmmm.... interesting really. Plus, it says that your house is a liability not an asset... property taxes makes it a liability... interesting... :)

Anyway, I'm still at page 33 so I guess I'd be reading more of it later.

Ciao! Adeiu!

I'LL BE RICH! I AM RICH! :)

Grabe muntik na akong malasing kagabi... I was at Pier One with my officemates waiting for the time to pass by before we go to the grand launch of Privé II tapos they challenged me to down tons of Jãgermeister... errr being the pleaser that I am I was able to down 5 shots (plus 10 glasses of water so as not to be tipsy) before me and Steve went to Privé. Actually, I was getting a bit goofy last night.. err clumsy rather. Yung pepperoni na kinikuha ko nalalaglag sa lap ko. Yung Ice nalalaglag sa table so mukhang the alcohol was going into my head na... thank god for water therapy.

Anyway, so nagpunta na kami ni Steve sa spa launch tapos i felt so out of place sun. Everywhere you look andun ang mga beautiful people ng Cosmo-Manille. Sad to say I was wearing a conservative office top and a black blazer. God I just smiled the whole night para hindi ako mukhang kawawa. In a way I was able to charm the bar tender with my smile... errrr sort of. Puro alcoholic mixes kasi yung siniserve nila and I had already downed 5 shots sa Pier One. Bellinis, Mimosas, at Cosmopolitans ang siniserve. I charmed the bartender to make me some iced tea... hehehe kakahiya no... at least ginawa niya. :)

I wanted to go home kasi not drunk and my head is still normal of which I was successful. Thank God talaga for water therapy. Anyway, I'm getting a bit red all over... a sign of my sinful escapade last night with alcohol. Never again! Water therapy forever! It's the first time I've downed alcohol ng ganun kadami. I will be a good girl na... promise

Yesterday at work I was feeling so useless that I decided to go that extra mile and walk, do cold calls, and knock on people's doors (yes,part of my job is to knock on people's doors...*sigh*). While I was walking, I came upon this kid who I thought was just gonna ask me for some money or candy or something. So I asked him " Ano kelangan mo bata?" translation: " What do you need kid?" (teehee). He just looked up at me and suddenly blurted out of nowhere " Ate pwede ba tayong mag pakasal?" Translation: " Can we get married?" . I was like whoa! Kid, if you were only 20 years older I probably would coz you look rather cute but no... I won't marry you. OK so i went on my way to visit my valued client. The moment I passed by at this advertising/ print office there were tons of males outside and the moment they saw me they stared and I couldn't help but blush (I hate it when people look at me like i'm being undressed) then a couiple of guys hooted " Miss! Pakasal na tayo!" " Ma'am bakit ngayon ka lang dumating sa buhay ko?" translation: "Miss! Let's get married!" "Ma'am why did you come into my life only now?" or something to that effect God! I don't know if I would be horrified or be happy that men suddenly ogled at me the whole day. I was just wearing my usual corporate attire. Was it the new shoes? was it the lipstick? The heck I dunno... one thing is for sure I've never gotten marriage proposals twice in a row. Hehehe.. My head is swelling! :P

I wanna be a little fishy
yes I do, Yes I do, YES I DO!

I wanna swim around and be a little fish clown
coz it is so cool to be under the water...


rain rain rain... every where it's wet down here in Manila.
I can't even go out to watch a movie yesterday *sigh* I hate floods.

Nothing to do at the office except take messages and
do telemarketing. Bacause it's raining.

I went to this recruitment firm to pick up a deposit then suddenly the world stares up err rather down at me. I tripped.
A girl in red corporate attire in black stilettoes tripped in front of 20 people.. and Oh my gosh some of those 20 people were cuties! *sigh*

One client wanted to chop my head off just because... JUST BECAUSE!!!!!!!!!! geeeezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!! I'm not being paid enough to be an outlet for anger.

OK so i'm really bored. What I'm saying makes no sense. I'll just stop and sing again ok?


I wanna be a little fishy
yes I do, Yes I do, YES I DO!

I wanna swim around and be a little fish clown
coz it is so cool to be under the water...

IN the Ghetto people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just came from this really cool party held at THE BASEMENT at LIBIS. GOD! I braved the storm and the winds and the lack of transportation just to get to that event! There was this fashion show from Nafnaf and Unica Hija. Of course being the forever designated photographer for my beautiful friends (talk about being a stage friend) I was up to the task of documenting their every pretty move. The ERG drinks and Jägermeister stuff was over flowing. Beautiful bodies swinging in the dance floor while the storm is raging outside. People having fun, bonding, and not thinking about tomorrow for just this rainy night...

It just seems like earlier I was in this uber angry-bad-world-is-on-my-shoulders-being-the-old-grumpy-me mood. I really hated waiting and I really hate to be late as well so when my buds were quite late is was a bit miffed. What made me even miffed was I had to shell out a couple of bucks for cabs and starbucks coffee because I've been waiting for them for quite a while and the guard was eyeing me in those you're-just-hanging-out-here-and-you-are-not-buying-anything look. Oh well... TOTAL RESPONSIBILITY taught me that I am the only one creating THE problem... if it's beyond my control, it's beyong my control. It was raining.. it's traffic, of course they'd be late. DUH!

Anyway, as I look at the people who were dancing I have this voice inside me saying "DANCE! DANCE! STRUT YER STUFF BABY!" but no... everytime I'm with my group I seem to transform into this nerdy person once again, as if I'm not part of the crowd. Pathetic... I spend the entire evening conversing with a potential bank client while the rest of my minions shake their gluteous maximus. grrrr...

So I just downed several Jägermeister.. got a cute blinker and a lighter and wished I wouldn't get an allergic reaction tomorrow (FYI, I'm allergic to certain alcoholic beverages.. I get really bloated and puffy all over like the Michelin Man).
I left the party with Lester and got home alone. No hunny to be with coz he's probably at home sleeping. I feel guilty not bringing him to the party, but then it was a last minute decision for me to go to the party. Besides, it's raining like hell and he doesn't have a car anymore so there wouldn't be a means for him to go home much less give me a ride home. If ever he reads this... sorry snuggle bunny!

I stink of smoke still... I have to really wash myself really good tomorrow morning. All those smokers are polluting the air inside the bar (it's not a bar if there's no smoking area much like the saying a kiss isn't a kiss without some tongue) OK! enough said. I'm beginning to feel an itch. Let's go allergic reaction! WAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!